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My life is a roller coaster ride, constantly filled with ups and downs.

Each and every time I feel happy, something bad is bound to happen. It's like a devil, creeping at the corner waiting for the perfect time when I'd least expect it and bam, life decides to troll me.

Hate this feeling of animosity between friends. Hate how I'd chose to avoid it like a scaredy cat I am rather than to face it. It feels almost natural to shun the problem and just hide in my shell. I know it's not the logical thing to do but I am completely stripped of any ounce of confidence I have after what you said, the honest truth.

And so, now I just feel worthless. I don't even feel worth your forgiveness or a second chance. It's not ego or pride, but it just hurts so extremely bad when it comes from a close friend.

I don't blame anyone but myself.

It's time I start to be dependent and less reliant on friends for acceptance, comfort and happiness. Set my priorities straight and hope to be a better person in future.

Soul-searching begins once the clock hits 11.30 tomorrow, where I am freed from all my worries about examination and I can focus on changing my flaws.

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As corny as this sounds, spending time with you makes me happy :)

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Say hello to the World's Cuddliest Bear - Sarpi :)

Happy Valentine's Day everyone

xx, debs 

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A daisy, in general, symbolizes innocence and gentleness. 

A white daisy symbolizes common love. 

"In Victorian times, young, heartbroken women who wished to be loved began a custom using the daisy. A young maiden would pluck a daisy's petals, one by one, and sing, "He loves me, he loves me not," as she pulled each petal. The last petal plucked would be the future of her relationship. This custom is still in use today."

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Never felt so upset in school for such a long time, so I left this horrendous place hurriedly in hopes that I could escape from this awful feeling. Prayed on the way out and doubted God for giving me such a shitty day, so I asked him to 'make my day a better one please'.

As I boarded 15, someone tapped me on my shoulder. I turned, it was my unicorn buddy - Zul. In an instant, he asked me what was wrong and out came pouring lil miss merlion but he didn't freak out (or maybe he just wasn't showing it haha) and he kept trying to make me smile, which I did eventually! That would probably be my most memorable bus journey that was only 3 bus stops long! Thank you Zul :)

After Zul alighted, Natsy called me. It was all timed so well, the moment one leaves, another angel appears to keep me comforted. Again, she knew something was wrong and somehow like Daddy God already planned it, both she & I were on our way to Pasir Ris. Perfect! We met, we spoke and we ate together until I cheered up.

Now, I feel so grateful for today. For without it, I wouldn't have gotten to see this beautiful side of my friends, friends who mean the world to me now. That's why I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, be it a bad or good thing, you will eventually learn some life lesson from it and just in that instant, your eyes open up wider and let you see how clear life is, and what's it about.

Thank you God, for you will never fail me. I love you Daddy!

xx, debs

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xx, 

debs