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My life is a roller coaster ride, constantly filled with ups and downs.

Each and every time I feel happy, something bad is bound to happen. It's like a devil, creeping at the corner waiting for the perfect time when I'd least expect it and bam, life decides to troll me.

Hate this feeling of animosity between friends. Hate how I'd chose to avoid it like a scaredy cat I am rather than to face it. It feels almost natural to shun the problem and just hide in my shell. I know it's not the logical thing to do but I am completely stripped of any ounce of confidence I have after what you said, the honest truth.

And so, now I just feel worthless. I don't even feel worth your forgiveness or a second chance. It's not ego or pride, but it just hurts so extremely bad when it comes from a close friend.

I don't blame anyone but myself.

It's time I start to be dependent and less reliant on friends for acceptance, comfort and happiness. Set my priorities straight and hope to be a better person in future.

Soul-searching begins once the clock hits 11.30 tomorrow, where I am freed from all my worries about examination and I can focus on changing my flaws.