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Here's a brief update of my past weekend!

School's finally out for a study break before my exam this Friday, 10 Aug. Had a great dinner with Karen, Kaisen, Tanya, Karen's sis & her boyf last friday at Pepper Lunch! Ended off having HTHT session with m'lovely Tanya. Really love pouring my heart out with her, even though it's only temporal but it's just really nice to know that there's at least one person out there that understands your feelings.

'Every time the Lord closes a door, he opens another one for you.' For awhile there, I thought you were the one for me, but I was wrong. So now, I'm pretty excited to know who's behind the next door! 'Can't wait to finally meet my husband!' Saw a quote on tumblr which said 'Don't date anyone you don't see yourself marrying' and I felt it made a lot of sense. Last time, someone told me 'Since we are young, we should just "play" all we want because when we grow up, we have to take things seriously!' but instead, why can't we get together in hopes that we'll get married one day? I mean don't people usually hope their relationships last till they grow up & eventually settle down with one another? I tried to convince myself I didn't want anyone by my side, that I didn't need a partner to get by. But who am I kidding? I'm definitely not an independent person who can survive by myself, I constantly need someone to get me by.

Maybe God is putting me through trials and tribulations to mould me into an independent person, someone who relies less on others. (or maybe to prepare myself for my #foreveralone moments haha!) If that is what you are doing Lord, I'll follow.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 

I really don't know what to do with you. I want to talk things out with you and settle it once and for all. But I feel that you're still 'obliged' to speak to me, so it's alright. I'll just hope here and pray.

Going to IKEA gave me mixed feelings. I was really excited to go there & have my favourite meatballs + chicken wings but at the same time it reminded me of the movie - 500 days of summer. There's one scene that I'd never forget;

'What is our status?'
'Who cares? I'm happy, you're happy! We don't have to put a label on it.'

This is my biggest fear. Loving someone that isn't going to like you back. Yes, not even 'love' but LIKE you back.

xx, debs